Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Blessed with the Best?

Originally posted to xanga.
I really really want to be the person I want to be.
I want to do what I want.
I want to be whatever.
I want to make my mistakes.

Amy's a great best friend. She's really down for letting me fuck up if I want to. Like, yeah there are times when you really need to interviene I guess, but those times don't exist with me. I ask Amy her opinion and she gives it and says "... is what I'd do" or "...is how I'd feel." and she doesnt get offended if I'm not down.

Shes really good about letting me know where she stands, and shes really good at thinking the way I think, and when we think differently we accept that thats the case.Shes down for trying things, and doing different things. but if one of us if like "I don't want to do that" we accept that thats how the other one feels and we don't hold it against them and we don't pressure them into anything. (Sometimes I push a little but I give in really easily, cuz Amy's Amy, you can't make her do anything.)

We're really great.

People always talk about having become a better person for having known such and such a person for having had such and such a person in their life. And maybe its just because the last few years/high school is a really important time, but Amy is definatly one of the most positivly influencial people that I've ever known. And yeah I'm glad that I've known all these other people, but I can say with all the confidence in the world, that I wouldn't be the same person without having known her.

I'm definitly funnier, I definitly listen to more/different music, watch more/different movies, she helps me reason things out. If I hadn't had her to depend on throught things with Ross, I might have exploded. She was always patient and always listened and when I was stupid, she could see, some how, where I could be coming from. I always trust her not to judge me, or hold my thoughts/actions against me.

She's exactly what it means to be a best friend. I swear. I want to know her forever and I never want there to be a time when I don't.

I could probably talk more about it. I could go into the history of us, we're pretty effin adorable/ridiculous. I love us. The best thing thats happened to me so far in life, is getting to have a real best friend.

haha, what does that make me sound like a lesbo?